Reinvent The Self!

I wonder that the precious worth of the Moment, almost always, is realized in the retrospect and not at that very Moment. There’s a lag! I always feel those were the Golden days. I always cherish my past. Whenever I revisit the past, I come to know about the finer nuances about the things that happened. I come to know the intrinsic Meaningfulness those events brought in my life. On the other hand, the Meaninglessness, in my then instinctive thinking, as well as in my then approach towards that moment makes me wonder even more! How unconsciously, unknowingly, without being aware, my instincts, my sense of I, took control on me and the things happened! And to add further wonderment to it, the things that happen, eventually prove to be perfectly organized for the overall betterment in the larger scheme of things complying with the Principle of Necessity! In short, I always feel, whatever happened is indeed perfect!

How strange, yet how beautiful! A true order from the apparent disorderliness, a true meaning in the apparent meaninglessness, a true sense in the apparent nonsense! Then I think, if only I could be “more present”in that moment, how truly enjoyable that moment would really become!

Sometimes I feel that there are 2 faces or views of any moment serving their respective causes. One is universal and the other is individual. Looking from the perspective of universal view, what I Do and what is being Done on me, follows the Principle of Necessity, that truly serves the universal cause. In short, I keep planning and something else keeps happening. What happens is simply unavoidable, indispensable, unpredictable, predetermined, written!

Looking from the perspective of an individual view, the degree to which I am present in that moment serves my individual cause. By my degree of presence in the moment, I mean, how Aware I am in the moment. Am I in unison with the Divine? Am I acknowledging His presence? Am I experiencing Oneness with the moment? This serves individual cause.

To me, Universal cause is essentially Growth and Harmony to sustain Life! It may be or should I say is, raw, crude. The scheme of things is arranged so as to sustain Life. Universe has to constantly maintain the conditions or parameters under which life is possible and sustainable. Some may say the cause is Darwinian survival for the fittest or jivo jivasya jivanam. But individual cause has to be essentially fine, soft! It is the state of Bliss, experience of Oneness, moksha, Nirvana or enlightenment whatever we may like to call it! One is about physics and the other is about metaphysics. One is about matter, the other is about spirit. One is Raw whereas the other is extremely Fine.

The real puzzle is the event is one, but has 2 different dimensions, 2 different purposes. Still it serves both, often perfectly! I am truly grateful to God for creating me and letting me experience His beautiful creation, the Universe!