Last blog, we saw the nature of fear. Fear, although the root cause of all Evil, it clearly points me to the friend with higher power, and sooner or later I realise that friend called Faith!
I know that unless I surrender, I will always be in the grip of delusion. My favourite delusion is Fear. However, One thing is clear. Surrender is natural. It happens on its own. So in order to surrender before God (consciousness), I don’t have to take monumental efforts either. This surrender will also be natural. So what I need to do?
I need to first be aware of that higher power and it’s Grace that is there all around me. After this, I need to have a genuine desire to free myself from the clutches of Fear. And be patient, that is, keep observing everything with attention/awareness. In short I just need to Be!
In Marathi language, there’s a saying “Satya sankalpacha daata Hari”. It means, I just need to desire Him genuinely. And that’s it. God notices that genuineness in my desire, and the irrevocable process of becoming free begins! God will ensure how to fulfil my desire. He will arrange the events in my life in such a way that if I remain aware throughout and keep observing them with careful attention, the path towards my Freedom becomes lit and visible to me clearly. Now I just need to tread that path lit by my God with my other friend, Faith! This friend is sent for my help by God. When I Join his hands, all of a sudden, Fear starts melting! Fear wishes me a good luck and melts happily. I realise that it is because of Fear, my first friend, that I was introduced with Faith. But this time, I become Joy. I become independent. My Joy no longer depends on anybody.
With Faith, I start experiencing His abundant Love, His Grace everywhere I go and at all the times. With Faith, I can clearly see what I need to do (path of action). With Fear, I knew only reacting. Now I become Fearless. Always ready to face/embrace the Unknown. My views about Unknown change dramatically now. When I was with Fear, I wanted to be with a “certain” outcome of my choice. I feared any other outcome. Now that I treat Unknown as God and I remain with Faith, I invite the Unknown with open heart and become ready to accept the outcome as the Gift of God!
One other thing I notice is about my ego. Where is it? It stated melting as soon as my first friend Fear melted. Ego really “loved” Fear so much. This love is what we daily see in movies and songs. You complete me, I can’t live without you type love! 😊 Anyway. In presence of Faith, ego understands it’s true nature which is Consciousness. Ego happily starts melting and disidentifying with everything he crated for his survival! Like me, my family, my country, my world, … , it doesn’t stop!
Now there is no separate identity other than Consciousness. Everything I see, perceive, experience is nothing but God! I see Time also as a servant of God, the timeless God. I realise further that God sent “Time” to make me aware of my own nature. Seems like a movie script? Indeed. Like in a movie, “Bluffmaster”, I meet everyone who I identified with on my way and I realise that indeed it was He who planted “them” in my life so that I become eventually fed up of my own identity! Some of them I “loved”, some I hated, some I liked, some disliked, and so on. “They” helped me in causing Suffering. And Suffering is also one of my Teachers. I meet them again for the last time on the path towards Freedom, to unite with The Oneness! I realise how fool I was and happily I laugh at myself and get merged into only one identity that’s there. Consciousness. God. Krishna! It has infinite names. It is infinite. Call it anything you like! Till that moment, Faith is always with me, smiling!
Reinvent The Self! 