Reinvent The Self!

My ego feeds itself by perceiving a constant state of lack. It keeps telling me, “I need to be like this…For that I need to do something…”. Always. Incessantly. In short, my ego doesn’t let me be Still! This state of lack is full of my deluded understanding. About myself and about the world. Many wise people, therefore emphasize on the Being dimension. That is to always have my focus on the eternal timeless consciousness. Not perceiving any need to do anything. Not having any urge at the moment. I must feel complete. All the time. By all means. Like Ramana Maharshi says, “Your own Self-Realization is the greatest service you can render the world”. And this is so correct.

I used to think, all the world of Impermanence is kind of inferior to the eternal timeless consciousness! And hence ultimately unreal. Mithya! If Mithya alludes to my imperfect representation of reality, I tend to gel well with the meaning. However, if it alludes to unreality, then to me, it doesn’t make any sense.

Time doesn’t exist or is an illusion… Whatever you see is an illusion…. Form is illusion…. What your mind thinks is delusion…. It’s just a temporary world… and so on. By saying all this, I am actually belittling the Reality in favour of permanent reality. Reality has equal essence. How can its essence diminish when It assumes the form? I feel therefore, that I must honor the duality because it is the preferred mode by which the transcendental Reality manifests Itself. Getting lost in duality is different from honouring it.

To me, the reality that we see, sense, feel is not the “wholesale falsehood” (borrowed the term from Shri Aurobindo) to the extent of denying it fully in favour of the Present Moment.

Our illusions (senses) as well as delusions (mind) are because of imperfect representation of reality. This is due to the immanent biases and sensory flaws I have in me. Therefore, denial of time, denial of form world is actually Denial of Reality.

I must remove all the biases and flaws in my mind and body. How? By just acknowledging their presence. Being aware of them. By pure surrender! If I try to remove it myself, I won’t be able to do that. Remember Jarasandha? He attacked Krishna 17 times! So the ego and fear in the form of 6 enemies, Kama (desire), Krodha (anger), Lobha (greed), Moha (attachment), Mada (pride) and Matsara (jealousy) always attack me uninterruptedly. The only thing I can do is to Surrender! Apparently it seems effortless. Indeed it’s effortless. But I take too many efforts to “realise” the effortlessness! Once I surrender, I never get lost in the duality. And as mentioned above, I start honouring it!

My journey doesn’t stop at Being. It starts at Being. After all Gita is born in the battlefield of Kurukshetra, the field of Action! Rightful action. Do it right the first time. Yogah karmasu kaushalam! Action is as Sovereign as the dimension of Being!

The Divine Impermanence!